Thursday, January 25, 2007

Aha!

Turns out I wasn't a posting dummy at all -- I was just another victim of incompatible technology...which is ironic considering I work (sort of) in the technology field. Meaning it's sort of technology-related, not that I sort of work. Although I do sort of work sometimes, like when I'm blogging or reading blogs or on infertility message boards. Not that I ever do that sort of thing (ok, this "sort of" thing is getting silly) when I'm at work! No ma'am, I'm all about productivity! (In case my boss is reading this. Which he isn't. Because he isn't struggling with infertility.)

Aaaanyway, apparently Blogger supports two browsers: IE and Firefox. And I'm on a Mac. And I was using Safari. So I've downloaded Firefox and just as Heather pointed out, there's a handy little "create link" button right above the posting window!

And the reason I wanted to learn how to post links is to send you all over to my friend Carol's blog to congratulate her on getting through the transfer stage of her first donor egg cycle with two beautiful blastocysts that are now on board and a whole bunch of 'em in the freezer! Stop by to wish her good luck in the 2ww...

As for me, I'm starting to freak out and obsess and I hate it. I couldn't sleep last night because I kept waking up every time I rolled on to my stomach and SORE boobs. And I know they are sore because of the progesterone I'm taking. And yet. And yet in the middle of the night I had myself convinced that they couldn't possibly be that sore from just the progesterone pills, right? I mean, I must be pregnant, right?

ARRGH.

Oh, also I might be a tiny bit upset because another friend of mine just gave birth yesterday. I am truly happy for her. And I am also truly sad that it's not me getting to meet my brand new baby this week. But the one good thing is that even though I'm sad, and frustrated, and angry, and disappointed, I am also determined. I am determined to be a mom, one way or another. I don't have to be afraid that I'll never get there. I just have to be willing to accept that the road may be long, and twisty, and bumpy, and dark sometimes. And you know, some days I can do that with joy in my heart and a smile on my face and other days I just have to force myself to get through the day without breaking down crying in the middle of work. Today is one of those days.

9 comments:

Melissa said...

Hope tomorrow is a better day.

Stephanie said...

Best of luck with this IUI. I know the TWW can be...let's say...sucky! Hope this is your cycle!

Cathleen said...

Hang in there. It's never easy, but it seems even harder when your in the 2 week wait...at least for me.

Cathleen said...

Ava, I think, ok I know, I'm a technical idiot, but I have your blog set up in bloglines, and for some reason your feeds don't feed. Any suggestions?

I'm going to try deleting you and adding you back...the equivalent of let's turn the computer off then back on, to see what happens...

I did warn you that I am technologically challenged...

Carol said...

thanks for the link. :-)

And what are you doing using that silly old mac!

Baby Blues said...

Hang in there. It gets harder when the end of the 2ww comes nearer. The anticipation makes me more vulnerable. Stay strong.

Leslie said...

you know I was just telling/warning my dh today that the trigger shot can give you a false BFP. I have no tests in the house right now (used the last one today at 11lpo) and am going to try not to buy any until well after our IUI next cycle. Good luck finding some kind of distraction - the last few days are a real bitch.

Minh said...

Hi everyone,
I am very new to this. First of all i want to introduce myself to everyone that my name is Minh. I have been try to have a baby with my husband for over a year now. today is my 2 weeks wait end and i suppose to take a pregnancy test. I didn't dare to do it, because i am afraid to get a negative test. I am going through what you guys going through right now. It's very emotional for me, and my husband. I am very understand all of your feeling. My heart will go to all of you guys out there that going through this hard time. Hanging in there, and be strong.

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