Things I didn't know

1. That follicles can start developing -- you can even get multiple follicles when previously you only had one -- and then stop developing and die.

2. That you can find out really really bad news on Christmas Eve and yes, it does ruin Christmas just a little bit.

3. That a marathon session of Guitar Hero II will temporarily relieve the pain and frustration of having to sit out the rest of a cycle with no hope of pregnancy.

4. That once you get back on the infertility boards & blogs, you'll remember the pain and frustration again.

5. That infertility is even harder to deal with than you think before it happens to you.

Merry Christmas, and Happy New Year.




(and for anyone who's interested in the medical crap (you know you are) I'm now waiting to start 10 days of Provera so I can get my stupid period and start the next cycle. Don't know what the protocol will be yet, probably either a full injectable cycle or Clomid + injectables. Whee!)

Chronically late

One thing to know about me is that I am always running late. I just don't seem to have an accurate concept of time. I like to think that's because I'm so busy thinking about important things and solving world problems, but in reality it's because I get distracted easily. Like right now, I'm supposed to be wrapping Christmas presents and instead I'm roaming around on the Internet, reading infertility blogs.

So being that I'm always late, it's not surprising that my eggs seem to take longer than most people's to grow.

*sigh*

Had my CD12 u/s yesterday and unsurprisingly it's going to be a while before I ovulate. I have three growing follicles though (two 9mm and one 11mm), which is two more than I've had in the past, so I'm hoping at least a couple of those suckers pop out for their play date with G's swimmers. Knowing that each cycle there's a 25% chance of pgcy I was hoping that if two or three popped it would increase my chances to 50-75% but G kindly explained to the math dunce that I am that it doesn't work that way. Dammit, even MATH is against me!

In other (related) news, it looks like there's a strong possibility we'll be back to the horizontal hokey-pokey instead of IUI this cycle since the lab is going to be closed on the days that I'm probably going to ovulate. I of course think that means we have no chance in hell of conceiving this cycle but the doc says that's not the case. Guess we'll find out...

Here we go again...

After the failed IUI attempt last cycle I've done everything I can to forget about this whole baby thing...easier said than done of course but at least there's all this holiday crap going on to take my mind off it.

It sounds so stupid and I'm sure a year from now I'll look back and laugh/cry, but I really thought I'd get knocked up on my 1st IUI. I mean, medical intervention = sure thing, right? Ummm, wrong.

But, I'm back on the horse. Took my Clomid, ordered my Ovidrel, and am having wine & sushi with reckless abandon while I wait to find out when I have a hot date with the man & his syringe.

Nothin' to do now but wait...